new snake friend
today i rescued a snake and a little bird on two separate occasions
don’t check up on people who have decided you are not in their picture anymore. you don’t need to know how they’re doing. save yourself the trouble, seriously.
from “The Ten Essential Rules of Hitchhiking,” Bhanu Kapil, Incubation: A Space for Monsters
(i first read this part after not having slept for the night, sitting outside by astor place waiting for two people who would be arriving at such different times, being very very aware of the sunlight and the blue skies and how little i was accustomed to either. i read this part and something inside of me cracked and i wiped at my face because i didn’t realize i was crying. i love you; please don’t die. i love you; please don’t die.)
my bf is being super sweet and taking care of me because i’m sick and miserable so that makes me happy but at the same time i’m sick and miserable, ya know?